Hey folks! Have you played my game? Do you know it exists? Well, you might, since you follow me, but I don't think many people do, because, well, when it got featured on Pixel Day on Frontpage, it got dunked from there in 2 hours by other cool games! Fair, right?

Yaa, it is fair, there were a ton of amazing games, and, I was happily playing them and not worrying about my own game! Yes, I worked on it for a year, yaa there is a lot of drawings, bunch of guys to talk to, but some of those games blew my mind, and my game is just a lil platformer gameplay-wise if you think about it!! And, I still got those 2 hours and got to participate in a cool event, so it's all good, right?

Well, yesterday, I go to Frontpage and see my game featured again!! Omg!! I got so happy, I was like, gosh, maybe it doesn't suck after all, I mean it got a really nice score right now, gosh they decided to let folks know it exists!! And gosh, it's in a second spot, that's cool right?? An hour later, I refresh a page and it's gone!!!!

That was the point where I got pretty upset, I have to say! Why awaken this happiness once more just to snatch it away like that?? Like, this Ballfrog game is of course amazing, like, really amazing, but... There were all those other games that are on Frontpage for over 10 days now!.. Does my game suck so much, it doesn't deserve more than 3 hours of Frontpage?.. I... don't think so!.. I really think people can like it!! I put a lot of effort into it, and I know that alone doesn't make a fun game, and that other people might have worked in teams, so it's like, more people deserve more exposure time... but I really think it's not super-unfun!!..

Honestly, I don't believe anyone would even be so cruel as to re-feature a game just to take it down an hour later after the creator gets all happy!! From all of my experience being here, this can't possibly be right! A lot of new creators get huge exposure just because they made something fantastic, or just fun to play or watch! A lot of them don't, but that's alright, the competition is fierce! But usually, when a game gets featured, it stays there for at least a day, right?..

I just have a lot of faith in my game being silly and fun to those who like silly things, so, I think it has to be a mistake to have my game be Featured twice, and in both cases, get taken down from there within hours/minutes! And things like that happen! But, I would say, if I was smarter and didn't release my game on Pixel Day, it would actually be seen by more people! I wasn't thinking that I'd be better than the other people, not at all - I was just happy that I got to participate in an amazing Newgrounds holiday! But if I was to think about it and release my game, say, a week later - maybe I'd actually get a day of spotlight, at least!

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Currently, my game is at ~3500 views, which I believe is the lowest amount of views a frontpaged Pixel Day game has, if you don't count Unitres Lucid Early Prototype, which is, well, it has all it's plays ahead of it, when it gets completed, right? All because of these shenanigans with "technically" being frontpaged but actually not really!

I was absolutely ready to stick it all out and be as humble as I can about it (Edmund McMillen once said that a nice gamemaking rule is "you are not as great as you think you are", and I really wanted to heed that!), but after that punch in the gut yesterday, I sorta felt like making this little vent post here, without "getting it to frontpage" blog or anything, just to you folks who follow me here! If you've read this far - thanks for taking your time! I always am trying to make something, to draw or animate, a lot of it is inappropriate, which I mostly try to keep out of my Newgrounds, but a lot of it does get posted here, and I've hopefully got a cool collab cartoon in the making too! So, I'll keep doing my best, despite this! But, folks, if you haven't checked my game yet - please do, folks! Maybe you'll like all those silly NPC portraits I drew, and it'll be fun for you to jump around and try to look for all tomatoes! Thanks for reading, again!

Whewww!! I so rarely go public about what I feel about the reception I get of my stuff, but for this one, it was just a lil too much to sit on, so I hope you can forgive me for this post!!!!

Edit: oh and of course I don't know yet the results of the Pixel Day competition, but let's be honest guys my game isn't winning anything!! Not when incredible games like Olive's Art-Venture and Shoot Trip Die are out there! I am not fooling myself with that! I just wanted folks to play my game is all, and on Itch.io, that's like impossible if you are not known, you need to rely on your existing following a bunch, so, Newgrounds was my only chance for a bunch of folks to play my game with me not being known for gamemaking, really, and I think I blew it by releasing it on a big holiday!

Edit2: also, I want to say that I don't mean any of that as a jab at how Newgrounds does things at all - I think Newgrounds is like the best when it comes to featuring things, at how Tom Fulp himself is jsut so active at his own site, which is unheard of, and just, I love Newgrounds!! Think of this post as more of a me expressing my feelings about getting super-unlucky with the release of my game on my little page as opposed to some call-to-action type of post!!